Can I be ….

Before I was a mother I had heard people talking about how they were different as soon as they became a parent.  I always thought it was a load of crap.  Seriously!?!  How can having a kid change you so much?  I mean sure your schedule and priorities change but how could it change who you are at your core?  Seems like a rather good excuse to get out of a few social obligations.  All this to say I woke up the other day and realized the idiots might have a point.  I’m different.  I can’t say I’m a better person but I am a different person.  I am not completely positive about how I have changed.  I can guarantee I’m not who I was a year ago.  Of course, I just turned 40 and there was the near death experience the month before we got Baby Bug.  It did shake me up and I was still recovering when Baby Bug wrapped her tiny fingers around my torn bleeding heart.  For the past 9 years all I wanted was to become a mother.  It consumed my every thought, breath, dream and nightmare.  All else fell to the wayside.  It became unimportant.  A decade later I’m lost.  I’m Rip Van Wrinkle.

As any graceful 40 year old would I celebrated with glamour if by glamour you mean channeling my inner Elton John.

Unlike an Oprah Ah-ha moment, I’m wandering around my house searching for myself.  Who is this woman whose picture hangs on my wall standing by a cairn in Scotland?  Who wrote the pages in these journals over the past 24 years?  Is she dead?  Gone for good or simply on vacation? As I have wondered around searching for who I am, I’ve looked back on who I thought I would become.   What is the world I live in?  Are all the dreams I had even important to me anymore?  So many questions circle my mind and make me twitch.  This is when I came up with an idea.  Why not spend a year trying out all the dreams I had.  Once a month I will try out a dream and see if it still fits me.  Can I be a travel blogger?  Can I be an extreme couponer?  Can I be gardener?  Can I be a girly girl?

Time to break free from this prison of indecision!

The month of July is dedicated to the question Can I be a Travel Blogger?  I’ve interviewed a few experts in the area and will be posting them this week.  Then for the next few weeks I will be blogging mostly on travel.  In addition, my cousin and I are both turning 40 this year and are embarking on a long road trip with our kids across have the country.  I will be sharing our experiences along the way.  By the end of the month, I hope to be able to say whether I can or can’t be a travel blogger.

Have you ever had a dream or two for so long at some point you wonder if it is even still your dream?  What are your travel dreams?  If you read a travel blogger, what would you be interested in reading about? I hope you will enjoy my journey with me.  Perhaps we will both find out we can be our dream.